I often think of this slow churn of water as I continue with the Clean Sheet. The churn is a result of change and it makes the water smelly and murky but it’s also a sign of spring and the flowers and blossom and baby ducks that are still to come.
As I gradually improve on one aspect of my life I experience an emotional churn. As the top layer I am dealing with at that moment finally drops as a result of my efforts, I can sense that flowers are preparing to bloom. At the same time, I can feel the next layer of murky, dark mood rising and bringing with it a bad stink. This feeling of churn is difficult to deal with. I know that spring is coming, but I struggle to get past the smell and I can’t hear any baby ducks quacking just yet.
This is natural. If there is no Winter there is no Spring. Imagine if there was no spring. It is not worth imagining.
So I try to encourage myself to embrace the churn. The bad smell might get stuck up my nose for a while but it’s not permanent. Eventually it will become less extreme, the blossom will bloom and the baby ducks will be paddling in the revived water of my mind.